The journey to home ownership has been a slow one for me. Twenty-four years ago, my parents sold our home, as my dad had accepted the call to pastor his first church. We moved into a house that the church owned, right there on the church property. We were there two and a half years before we moved again. The next house (also owned by the church my dad pastored) was home for six years. I graduated high school on a Friday and woke up bright and early Saturday morning to help my parents load the moving truck. I stayed behind with my grandparents and waited to begin my freshman year of college. The next four years are a hazy memory of dorm rooms, on-campus apartments, off-campus apartments, mobile homes, rental houses, and friends’ sofas.
Once graduated, I moved back to my grandparents’ house, an hour away from campus and waited for this really handsome journalism major that I’d been eyeing my last two quarters to get some sense and ask me out. Once he finally did, I decided it was time to search for greener career pastures in the big city, where my parents lived. Mr. Journalism followed me a couple of months later. I moved in with my parents and waited for Mr. Journalism to pop the question looked for a place of my own. Two years later, Mr. Journalism changed his name to HH. (I changed mine too.) We sped away from the church, cans a-tinkling along behind us, to our very first apartment.
Weary from all the years of temporary, so very eager to settle down, I’m pretty sure I started spouting off the benefits of home ownership to HH as he was carrying me over the threshold of our little love nest.
It took him seven years and two children to hop on board the house train.
We saved.
We searched.
We selected.
We waited.
We stomped our feet.
We cried.
We fought.
We waited longer.
We cursed.
We dug in our heels.
We waited some more.
We walked away.
Today, we start over.
I feel beat down from all the energy wasted on this particular house. I feel angry at the deception that went on and ill advice received. I feel stupid for hanging on so long. I feel disappointed that my kids are not going to grow up in this house that I’ve been envisioning for the last six months.
At the end of it all, though, it is just a pile of bricks. My anger will subside. My energy and excitement will emerge again.
As the journey continues.
Slowly.




